Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Where The Place Called Morning Lies
Today was supposed to be a nice triumphant day of little victories. Mainly, I was supposed to apply for my first ever job. Supposed to. Lately, I've been feeling worried about the future. I was thinking that it would be nice to have some money saved up for when I want to get an apartment after college. I've been so worried about Zak since he's been feeling worse and worse. I can't wait for the day we'll be able to get a tiny apartment of our own, but his sickness is preventing him from getting all of his class work done, and getting a job is out of the question at the moment. So here's where today comes in. I decided I was going to apply for a sales associate position at Victoria's Secret. Do I feel a little awkward selling people sexy under garments, yes. But, I figured that it was a seasonal position, and I could put aside my feelings about suggesting lingerie to people for a while. When I got to the store and waited on line to hand in my application, I just got so doubtful. In my abilities to master tasks, be personable, fit in, manage my time. The list goes on. And out I went, trying not to cry until I got past the sheer panties. Maybe I'm not ready for a job yet. Maybe I'm too hard on myself. These are things I have to figure out, but not yet. And now, content and full of Domino's pizza, I'm thinking that pushing myself into an immediate decision out of fear and worry is not the way to go. I'm hoping I'll figure these things out in time.
As for today's outfit, since I got home all in a huff over the events of the day, I almost didn't take any photos. But, I really liked my outfit today so I put on a smile and posed. That made me feel better too, actually. That and the pizza. This dress is one I found at the Salvation Army a while ago. The waist fits me perfectly, which is kind of ridiculous to me. Since blue and yellow have been one of my favorite combinations since the summer, I easily opted for my mustard cardigan. It's funny. I feel like yesterday I looked like I was going to a Nirvana show 15 years ago, and now I look like I'm on my way to my elite prep school. Oh well, as long as I dress in a way that makes me happy, right? Oh, and thanks so much for your feedback on my poem. It makes me so happy to know I can share these things with you guys. Your comments and support always make me so happy :)
Dress: Salvation Army
Sweater, Trench: H&M
Shoes: Steve Madden