Hello there, and hooray for Friday! After a long week, it's nice to have some time to relax and catch up with life. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately (mostly yesterday during my long breaks between classes) about my goals and what I'm doing with my life. I complain a lot about school, but I really do love what I'm studying. I'm lucky to go to a college where I'm free to study what I'm really passionate about and only what I'm passionate about. Every now and then, when I'm in a lecture or my poem is being workshopped, I pull myself back from the situation and realize, honestly, how cool it is to be experiencing and soaking up everything. Just recently, I applied for my first job. I doubt I'll get it, but I was proud of myself for taking the initiative towards saving up for my future. I'm a big worrier, so whenever I think about applying for a job I freak myself out and say that I won't be able to balance things. But, lately, I've been thinking about what I really, really want. And that is to be able to move to the bay area of California with Zak, and make a little happy life there for a while. With this perspective, all the school work and (hopefully) jobs will be more than worth it.
Oh, I've been rambling haven't I? It's just, every once in a while, I need a reality check from myself. I get into ruts where all I do is complain (yesterday), and that's just a waste. I am very lucky, and I have very wonderful plans to make reality. I have the best people surrounding me, and pushing me towards what I want. All of these, are the important things.
Top: H&M
Dress: Salvation Army
Cardigan: Zara
Tights: Hue
Shoes: Mom's
Belt: Target
Until tomorrow,
Nicole
