Tuesday, February 8, 2011
My Thoughts Were So Loud I Couldn't Hear My Mouth
Hello there! I actually wore this outfit yesterday, and those of you who saw my video blog will probably recognize it. I felt very seventies wearing it, what with my long yellow vest and flowery powery dress. Today, I wimped out when getting dressed super early in the morning and went for a cozy pair of jeans (their nearly leggings. SO COMFY) and a sweater - not all that photo worthy. I've actually been feeling a bit self conscious lately to be honest. I won't get too much into it, because I know we all get self-conscious every now and then. It's just that with the video blog yesterday, I felt very self-conscious about my voice, which I think is absolutely terrible. Whenever I'm in my poetry class, no one asks me to read their poems aloud and the teacher never asks me to read any poems either, and I always wonder if it's just because my voice is terrible. And when you're interested in something where you often use your voice, it's tough to dislike yours. It's such a weird problem to have. And today I'm just feeling self-conscious about my appearence. I've discussed this before, but almost all of the girls on my campus dress up, wear skirts and dresses, boots and capes. In one way, it's really cool because I feel like I'm always getting inspired by everyone's outfits, and it's nice to not feel like an outsider wearing the clothes I like. But on days like today, where I wear jeans and my TOMS, I feel out of place and very self-conscious, like I should have worn a dress instead, or swapped my TOMS for ankle boots. Once again, kind of a weird problem to have. I don't want to be too much of a downer, so I'll stop here. But yeah. Do you guys ever have any of these problems? I know being self-conscious is a common issue, but I feel like these problems are sort of odd and specific.