Some of you may have noticed that my blog's been a pretty quiet place for the past week, and that I haven't been commenting on your blogs much at all. For that, I'm sorry. And as much as I don't want to type out this explanation, I'm hoping it will be therapeutic or cathartic in some way. On Sunday, I broke up with my boyfriend, Zak. I wasn't sure of the reason, but i was pushing him away, resenting him. Bad things. I thought it was his fault that I didn't have many friends, and that he was the reason I was unhappy a lot of the time. So, I broke up with him and broke his heart. Very soon after, I realized I had made a huge mistake. I rushed myself into a decision that, while was ultimately my fault, I felt pressured to make. I apologized and told him I loved him, and now the ball's in his court. It's not easy having your future up in the air, though I know I deserve it. I've spent the last few days crying, feeling sick to my stomach, and trying to be happy. Obviously, dressing up and taking photos was the last thing I felt like doing. Now, though, there's nothing I can do but live my life, distract myself from the pain, and get back to normalcy, whatever that is now. And, part of normal life is taking pictures and blogging, so I thought that's a good place to start.
Today I went out with my friend Charlotte, and we did a bit of thrift shopping. I was able to pick up some cute new decorations for my room and a few tops. I'm wearing some new stuff here, since there's something about new clothes that clouds despair just the slightest bit. I picked up this deer print dress the other day, and ordered these loafers a few weeks ago. I like them, but the left shoe is a bit too big. I think I have two different size feet. Ah well. I finally tried out the "little socks" trend I've been hesitant to try, but I figured that trying something new might be a good idea at the moment.
Dress: H&M, Socks: We Love Colors, Shoes: Urban Outfitters